[ the words make her chest tighten, all the breath ballooning in her lungs. color rises to her cheeks as she crosses her arms and tilts her head forward.
this is going to ruin everything. she's never been good about hiding her thoughts or emotions. she'd been doing well enough until now, when everything seemed to overflow. ]
It's... not about the room or the showering. It's...
[ she bites her cheek briefly, trying to force the words into being like scrabbling a puzzle together in mere seconds. ]
A thousand years is a long time for you. Don't pretend it's not. So what's stopping you from changing your mind again like you did before? You could just find something [ or someone ] more interesting and then walk off one day. And, really, you should be able to do that if you want. It's your life. You could do that tomorrow and I wouldn't stop you, so...
[ by "tomorrow" she means "when you come back from having sex with whoever" ]
it isn't like he hasn't gotten bored and wandered off on his own before. he always comes back, doesn't he? a momentary interest isn't going to make him change his mind, not when he already made a promise to her and knows just how important it is to keep it. ]
I'm not going to break my word to you, Mar. A thousand years is a thousand years. [ he looks over towards the door and then back at her. ] Sex is just sex, y'know. I only do it 'cause it takes care of my needs. [ he doesn't even do it all that often, in his humble opinion. ] I'm not gonna fall in love with somebody just because I fuck 'em once. [ he doesn't even ask for a name majority of the time. ]
But is that what's really botherin' you? [ he has his doubts. ]
I don't think you'd fall in love, but you could still walk away with them if they...
[ what is her value in his life? without that much delineated, she can only make guesses. he wants to spend the next thousand years with her, sure, but would he do this for anyone in similar circumstances? (the answer may be obvious, but she spirals her way out of simplicity all the time.)
he says he'll stay with her, and deep down, she knows he'll keep his word. so what else could be bothering her?
her face flushes deeper. ]
It's not like your needs are something I could ever help with, so it's not worth having this conversation over! Happy?
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this is going to ruin everything. she's never been good about hiding her thoughts or emotions. she'd been doing well enough until now, when everything seemed to overflow. ]
It's... not about the room or the showering. It's...
[ she bites her cheek briefly, trying to force the words into being like scrabbling a puzzle together in mere seconds. ]
A thousand years is a long time for you. Don't pretend it's not. So what's stopping you from changing your mind again like you did before? You could just find something [ or someone ] more interesting and then walk off one day. And, really, you should be able to do that if you want. It's your life. You could do that tomorrow and I wouldn't stop you, so...
[ by "tomorrow" she means "when you come back from having sex with whoever" ]
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it isn't like he hasn't gotten bored and wandered off on his own before. he always comes back, doesn't he? a momentary interest isn't going to make him change his mind, not when he already made a promise to her and knows just how important it is to keep it. ]
I'm not going to break my word to you, Mar. A thousand years is a thousand years. [ he looks over towards the door and then back at her. ] Sex is just sex, y'know. I only do it 'cause it takes care of my needs. [ he doesn't even do it all that often, in his humble opinion. ] I'm not gonna fall in love with somebody just because I fuck 'em once. [ he doesn't even ask for a name majority of the time. ]
But is that what's really botherin' you? [ he has his doubts. ]
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[ what is her value in his life? without that much delineated, she can only make guesses. he wants to spend the next thousand years with her, sure, but would he do this for anyone in similar circumstances? (the answer may be obvious, but she spirals her way out of simplicity all the time.)
he says he'll stay with her, and deep down, she knows he'll keep his word. so what else could be bothering her?
her face flushes deeper. ]
It's not like your needs are something I could ever help with, so it's not worth having this conversation over! Happy?